This week has been interesting. Lots of information, lots of speculation, lots of changes, and still lots of smiles. First of all, I was awakened in the middle of the night to what I am sure is a mouse in the wall between our bedroom closet and our bathroom. SCARY! Mice carry disease and that terrifies me LOL This is our first home so I am a little clueless as how to take care of this pest. I do not want an infestation. Advice anyone? Cats are not an option in our household. It did lead to some interesting pillow talk, trying to figure out what that little creature could have to do so busy in the middle of the night. We think he is building a city.
I watched an interview with Emmitt Smith yesterday. I am a lifelong Cowboy fan and love me some Emmitt. He talked about how he used to meditate before games to envision the great run, the touchdown, the good block, and the win. I joked with my husband and said I was going to envision today being a good day. I envisioned my morning run going smoothly without me having to stop because of getting sick. I envisioned getting dressed in regular clothes with no pain. I envisioned being hungry for meals. I went to bed with a smile on my face ready to face what I had envisioned.
I woke up this morning feeling motivated. I set out for my run and made it almost all the way through before my stomach decided it no longer wanted what was inside. A typical event in my daily life these days. I rushed to the bathroom, dealt with it, got in a nice shower, and tried to relax away the pain. I got myself ready. I put on my makeup and did my hair with a smile on my face. Today is going to be a good day. I then chose my outfit.
I picked a cute tank top and a pair of jeans. Although all of my jeans at this point are baggy, I rarely get to wear a pair because the pressure of the waistband hurts. I have been wearing many elastic waistband outfits lately, but long for the wardrobe that just sits in my closet, waiting to be worn. Our car is in the shop right now so I had to drive my husband to work. I put on my clothes and topped it off with some perfume. Feeling pretty, just a little achy, we headed out the door.
The second I sit down in the driver's seat (I have regained driving privileges), the pain and pressure shoots through my abdomen. GGRRR!! After the 5 minute drive to the pharmacy where he works, it was obvious I would not be able to wear jeans today. I had them unbuttoned and unzipped before we got out of our own driveway.
So, here I sit at home today. The first day out of the week I have no doctor appointments or weigh ins or paperwork to deal with, so I plan on resting until my little man gets out of school. I changed into my elastic band lounge pants for relief. With a sigh, I looked in the mirror. At least the cute tank I picked out goes with these pants, and my hair and makeup are still good. So there! I'll just expand my wardrobe (no pun intended) to included varying types of elastic waisted pants. Maybe denim, buttons, and zippers are overrated anyway.
I have an appointment in a nearby town with a gastroenterologist. My local doctors fear I have Ulcerative Colitis or Crohn's disease. Both (surprise, surprise) autoimmune disease of the intestines. I am excited to get information and answers. I pray for relief. I fear, like many of the conditions I have, the treatment options will be greatly limited due to contraindications of other illnesses or meds I am currently dealing with.
I received a comment from a cousin asking if any doctor has stopped to think there may be one big underlying cause to this cluster of diseases that seem so relentless. Unfortunately, even the Mayo Clinic was left clueless. I get many comments that someday I will make somebody very rich when they figure it out and publish my case in a medical journal. I also get asked about research constantly. No one has stepped up. No one has decided to take this on and get to the bottom of it. I have actually been turned away many times due to the complexity of the situation. Each doctor and each specialist focuses solely on their specialty and recommend that someone take an thorough look. My primary doctor is a Godsend, but is left dumbfounded. I am hopeful this blog will end the cycle.
I am excited for this day still. My son has been promised a snow cone if he gets a sticker for good behavior at school today. I am a bit of a stickler for junk food so he is very excited! Tomorrow morning he has his very first soccer game. Actually, a double header. My husband and I were basketball players and I am a runner. Soccer is a whole new world for us, but our little man LOVES it. Seeing the joy in his face is the best feeling in the world. Finally, on Sunday the Cowboys start off their NFL season with a the new coach. Let's hope this season is better than the last few. I think family time, movies, soccer, and football are just what I need. Now, time for a nap!
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